time to blog again.. woohoo..!

sometimes things changes... out of out expectation. you would not know where is up to...
when you think it is yours and it was not
when you think it is in your hands and it was not
when you think you can take that change and challenges but in the end you failed

what is up then? your fault? others fault? who knows... we can never judge others.. but just ourselves. so then.. conclusion.. it is us.. it is me! what's wrong with me?

things changed... things moved... things went out of order...

pls take control.. get it out of me.. out of my sight..

sadess things that could happen

it has been great this pass few days... really enjoy much. party after party, undeniable it was awesome fun.. with great friends and company. it is jz sad that to see people leaving one by one. not leaving much people here. but life still goes on. to everyone.... all the best in coming years. no doubt it will be sad to see some people not coming back... but im sure you guys will be having good time ahead. have fun people... those who are coming back.. lets face the challenge... :)

*not in right condition now. message might be up and down. sorry folks....

SOON and very SOON

good day peeps!

at this hour blogging, doesn't seem right though. oh well, what more can i say.... in the trial of tension situation, God is in control. right? amen! it's gonna be a post of determination and believing.. so then

I BELIEVE...
i can finish drawings/montages/3ds/modal/detailing/essay/diagrams/words/panels on time!
i can do what are required
i can do exceed expectation
i can 'wow' everyone
i can graduate beyond saticfactory level
i can be all fired up the next couple of days
i can SLEEP enough!

okay.. enough of me but others now.
How is everyone doing? though everyone may not be on the same level but in the end. when 19th comes... everyone by hook or by crook will be done. YEA... we will be done! '


jz a short summary of the past days... went swimming with phang, choi and terence while pple who ffk.. ck, desmond and delon :( its beginning to be our usual routine. it was fun. getting the momentum to level up my stamina.. :D time was too tight therefore we skipped our usual cocoa bean after.

while friday, went for class in the morning and then gotten a little break out to Launceston show day. boy, it was awesome! slight disappointed, that couldn't win the big soft toy but in exchange, had an extreme ride! it was a whole of a dangerous ride where hands and feets are left flying in the sky. Angela, ck, (yr1 archi gal??) and me.... being dragged up, down, left, right, sides, whole lots of 360 degree twist. woohoo.. it was great! too bad... terence, choi, janet and morgon weren't in the game. tiny feets were not out to take the challenge.. haha! then had some awesome shopping for clothings and accessories. the next thing i knew.. clock is ticking at 410pm already! *poooff* rushed home to get ready for work at 5pm. and there it goes... a day gone.. BUT.. spent with friendly, smart, intelligent, awesome, friends...

coming up days.. we are just gonna be like a robot. facing comp 24/7 until that day to come.. I need some super geng strength and i know where is the source. who wants it? no worries, just ASK and you shall RECEIEVed! (with past tense, he has already done :D)

THANK YOU! ^^
good night peeps!

it is coming to an end!

It's time again! Yet another season to enjoy out there. SPRING! Today's weather is fantastic; foresee to have the lovely walk in the sun by the sea sometime soon. it's been long since Launceston was 20 degree celcius at day. haha.. God bless this day!

Up coming weeks will be hectic and disorder i presume.. i pray that god may take control in all sorts of situation, bringing things to good position and organised. just as lining up on grid, with perfect details, embracing at its best. ;)

with all that, i'll say.... i'll be graduating bachelor in 24days! now, that is exciting isn't it? all the best to UTAS 3rd year of 2010 bach students! All prayers are in His hands. Amen!

Mango, Kentuckee, BokChoi, Terence, PMonkey, CelineDelon, Iris, SzeSze, NetNet, YaYa, ChenChen, Janny, OneHole, Jasper, JnB, McHor, SamSukk, Rainbo, GuoYi, Ivany, Izzy, Tasha, Fatin, Liz, Sab, Anis, Ariff, FangYow, Tim, Veronica, Jazelle.... (can't remember all.. forgive me!)

as of today's DATE

*yawnnn* good morning!

Last night was a good sleep. WHY? because it was without axieties or worries of assignments even though i didn't do anything last night. Got back home tired after work. No mood to continue assignment and was reluctant to even do anything instead had watched Gossip Girls, sort of a reward for me for working so hard. yay!

Theory submission is coming up soon, like this coming wednesday. I have no idea how to do until today's date. But before that, Design submission this tues and then later part Landscape on friday. Wow, how do i even juggle my time.

It stucked me that i've not been spending much time with God lately after the previous major submission. Conclusion to that is... how quickly God's forgotten. Exactly coincide with what i read this morning. Sometimes i wonder all those days that i've skipped my devotion and the time i get back to it, it sort of tally back to the current situation. Çan we then actually doubt God's timing? I believe there's always something that is beyond our imagination. Not that i'm saying we should always missed daily devotion..

so then... what's up now?? Back to getting close to God. thrusting Him in current situation and situation to come. Believing that He is the all source of healing. Lord, come heal my backache.... :(


Alright, Mcd break for now and then begin HTD... Diagram, Language and Technology. themes that i'm looking at. Hope i'm able to get inspiration and write those theory out by this evening.

where is it... WHERE IS IT...
I can't find it. it's killing me slowly...

GOD + BTD + DS

1st thing comes to mind.... Thank God! and praise his name forever and ever.. today is one of those ''not so common'' days where i get my result. it is such a pleasant feeling when you're all prepared for your grades(though is not that good). asking god to give you that prepared heart while receiving it. not the outcome that matters but is the process of getting through it and accepting it as it is.

just a few days ago, quiet time was on the topic accepting plans that were planned ahead for us though it weren't what we want. Now i can see that it worked! with all that, i give thanks to god once again for all these. i believe there are more to come. more choices to make and more open routes in the comings. so right now, sam is waiting for the next amazing thing to happen!

that's all for now. back to DS!! tmr's the date and i'm no where near completion but... funny.. is there's always a 'but' behind all cases....? so then, this BUT is... DS shall be completed no matter what! so then. targetting by dinner, 2ds; and after dinner, diagrams; and after that, layout. weeeEEE...........

start now! all the best guys!

MISS complainer much

just for random reason, i've look back all the previous blog posts.. not bad at all. in fact i was quite amazed. over the period, what has happened and what went wrong or good. come to think of it, it was more of a complaining blog of mine rather than something encouraging. nonetheless, it is always out of human understanding and reach that when it happens, it happens. makes no difference to explain.

the more i look and read on the words, the more i feel i'm sounding like my sister! will this be a good sign? i wonder.. hmm after those hard days.. i should pamper myself with facial!.. wonders when will that day come. oh boy.. i miss those days where i dragged my sis to go with me. SHIRIN, I MISS YOU!!!!!

Fallen sam

it is another time of crazyness in uni life. i can't imgaine i'm still stuck where i started long long ago. God knows when it was. why is it so tough... so hard... so disturbing. I keep telling myself that i can manage it and able to finish as how i expected it will be but it seems that it always fail. i'm at the verge of giving up, seriously, no kidding. I need help, i need seek consultation, i need tutoring. Please let me have a good tutor and make me not hate him/her. everyday i wake up with hope, hoping for a good day and good start BUT.... who knows what happened in the end. STUCK IN THE HOLE! How can i sustain myself for another 2 more months when i'm not loving what i do and doing. INSPIRATION.. pls 'come and intervene' not 'come and go'. i need to come out with perfect well prepared work to show this week and not feel embarrass with it or discourage. sam!!!! you can do it. this is the encouragement i give you and reward. GOSSIP GIRLS!! go.. go.. GO.. GO!!!!

Time to follow you...
whereever you go, i'll go.
Pick me up by the side, where i'm waiting.

.. IF ..

what IF you fall in love in someone that you shouldn't to? comments pls..

*nothing to point here, just merely a discussion, don't get me wrong

posting a post for the sake of a post

A day has gone by with less excitement
Leaving just a few second of beauty moments before it ends
Believing passionately for responsiblities to fulfill at some point
Meanwhile, rejuvenating back the loss energy
while trying to achieve great relief somehow
Someone then comes and rejects your sincerity
Suddenly, it tears you apart
oh i wonder why, i wonder why
Sometimes i wish upon good things to happen
But in the end, it drift away further and further
and worst it becomes....

MONEY MONEY MONEY.. IN A POOR GIRL'S SHACK

Nothing can express how I feel right now. Things were so happening for the past few weeks. One after the other. Non-stop i would say, since the last day of presentation for design studio 5 untill today's date. I think FaceBook eventually will say it all. Wait up people for those amazing pictures.

above it all... i spent like crazyyyy this month! haha probably i will explain to my dad like this: dad, i took the RM2k as the flight fare back to msia in exchange with AUD2k for my exciting adventure exploration in tassie just within the winter break. :D weee! i think he's gonna faint. MOU POINT JOR LORR!

just an ovrall expenditure record...
1. petrol and then petrol again and more petrol for trips
2. never ending of food fest and extra junk foods
3. ingredients for cooking and baking in the enjoyable moments
4. adventure parks and games and fanatic exploration
5. summoned after summoneds.. like not nobody's business only -.-
6. washing and dry cleaning over and over again
7. tiger airwayy...
8. coming up car servicing, road tax, medibank, school fee...

gonna hide myself soon with all the debts ... lately feeling lazy to work already.. how in the world can i even reimburst back all the expenses?!!?!

UpDates...

it's been long i abandoned you here. Now that i'm back, you don't have to weary. I'm here for you. Soon you'll be upgrade, to be on par with me. More things are yet to come, and i assure you that. this week perhaps!

cheers
happy samg :D

Yet another day has gone passed.... with much pleassure and fun.

:) smiley to that!

Living in an unreal world really ticks me off. Many people are just adorably stupid and irresponsible. How can they manage to survive in this such world? I might be crapping much now as I'm half awake but still, this is to express my utterly undesired emotions in me. Forgive them for they do not know what they do...

I believe in MiracleS

There have been so much going on lately. I could truly say that I've witness miracles just in this very short period of time. The list goes on.... just bare with me as I share these moments of joy and fulfilment. :)

Calling out for God in the midst of assignment and crucial period, my dear friend had gotten his prayer answered. That figure, that was placed in his heart with that soft voice kept lingering, it wouldn’t disappear. Faithfully he obeyed. Being normal human, taking the normal procedure, browsing through ebay and analysing as well as observing the necessary things. With that, he has now gotten himself his 21st birthday gift by himself which is coming up soon! What was that, you might be pondering. It is his beloved, precious, ‘un-take-able’ away Mac book. Congrats Benny! It was honoured to count down with you that very moment. It was just that unforgettable great tiny little moment. That was my 1st miracle witness.

Calling out for God in the midst of assignment and crucial period, my dear friend had gotten his prayer answered. That figure, that was placed in his heart with that soft voice kept lingering, it wouldn’t disappear. Faithfully he obeyed. Being normal human, taking the normal procedure, browsing through ebay and analysing as well as observing the necessary things. With that, he has now gotten himself his 21st birthday gift which is coming up soon! What was that, you might be pondering. It is his beloved, precious, ‘un-take-able’ away Mac book. Congrats Benny! It was honoured to count down with you that very moment. It was just that unforgettable great tiny little moment. That was my 1st miracle witness.

Indeed, miracles in my life have not stopped. Speaking of specific, it was always been my dream to work in a high class restaurant or hotels. (it was my very 1st choice for further study-Hopitality). I did not want to work in a food court or any ordinary cafes but I just diligently dropped in my resume in any possible offers. In the very last moment of giving up, I just gave it another try into this Best Awarded Asian Restaurant. Believe it or not, I was hired! It was greatly a fulfilling desire and joy experience. Now is the time for me to master the skill of serving ><

The privilege to grasp the life of a young woman intrigues my faith towards God. The trials and tribulation she went through has answered her doubts in life. It struck me clearly that when there’s God, there’s hope. This is then the following miracle I’ve witness that beyond doubt God is faithful to us.

Not forgetting one last unforgettable impromptu miracle! Again, it is one of the desires for me to do baby-sitting as a past time while studying overseas. But I never got a chance to do so. The thought of probably locals wouldn’t want any Asian from nowhere to take care of their kids. Coincidently, it was in conjunction with mamak night. However, little Matthew’s parents were so flexible that they gave me permission to bring him along. It was great having him along while the night is going on. I was able to proudly present him there. Not taking advantage of him but to show that this little boy was a miracle and is a miracle in the coming years. Though they might not see it, but I believed that work has done according to God’s purpose.

Well, I’ve written much here. It may be long but I do hope this message has brought a meaning into your life, and that these miracles and testimonies will bring hope in you in finding your next MIRACLE IN LIFE. Never give up!

Author
SamG

Have a go on this youtube. it a song by Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston - When you Believe
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AA90I6ZlBNA
Enjoy!

comprehend unworthiness!

Yet another great story and message to share... speaking through experience...

Dear readers, what is the word 'worthy' in your content?
I got to know what 'worthy' is to me recently. We can never prove we're are worthy because the truth is we are NOT!

Why do I say so?
Have you experience in any situation, you ever think that you could finish certain task, certain to-do-list within the structured time frame? The thought and disappointment that you collect in the end is truly something that you will think, you are not capable and worthy to do. Perhaps, in the midst of assignments, the amount of work produced is not of the standards that you are targeting?
In reality, living in the uncertain and fragile world, human being tends to compare much, causing unnecessary jealousy and envies to arise. Why do we compare then when knowing the fact that God has already done all things for us in accordance to His will and timing. He has done on behalf of me. We just got to get it in our minds that God is mighty in all possible ways!
Thus, nothing that I can do to make myself more or less loved, valued and precious to God. Same goes to you!

This message is particularly for some stupid annoying people. Sometimes they don't get the message. I got to repeat and repeat and repeat till they get it. But i know tat the Lord is for me and knows my intentions. He will forgive me. Sorry, if i ever step on your toe.

RUN FOREST RUN!

Just 2 days, not logging in facebook and i get 100+ notification. darn! now days, things are moving fast. if you're one step behind, you'll need to catch the bus or else you'll be left out. But well, im not concern of catching the bus to fb updates but im only going to be anxious if i haven been catching on the infinity bus. =D WAIT UP! I'M RUNNING AND RUNNING AND I KNOW I WILL GET THERE ONE DAY! till then, i keep running.

GOD BLESS EVERYONE!

yay! just another day and easter break is here. more holidays and parties lining up. ^^

*title of this post reminds me of benny and zhen yang. i miss you so much, zhen yang. wish you were here :( take care man.

28-03-2010

TODAY... silliest thing happened. Not going to mention but it was weird. Nonetheless, never let that spoil my beautidul Sunday. Today, i have to finish my Design Studio, well, at least the individual part. Tuesday is the submission!!! and i'm done for 1st half of the semester. CAN'T WAIT!

Just a little re-cap of yesterday. It was Launceston Crazy Day. It was rare! One of my 1st few days, that i've seen so many bodies. woohoo! suddenly feels like home. I miss home :( really did enjoyed practically the entire thing. Was out with Angela, Choi and Benny. oh boy.. those guys can shop!

photo by SamGoh it was a fun beautiful memorable weekend!!

DAYLIGHT - ARTIFICIAL LIGHT - ACOUSTIC

ahh well, communicating with these 'bunch' of aspects is just so damn tiring. No doubt, back in Taylor's, i've learnt all these but this time is at much higher and deeper level. Cannot compromise and comprehend at the same time. Such a simple elements, if we're looking at it individually. Nonetheless, when we integrate all these, DARN! -.-

In 2 days, will be the submission and presentation. I've done almost 50% but still cannot work together with others.

Jia you lahh Sam(Ko)!

CELAKA!

'you think you so great?' what an epxression to put on someone else's life. But it's true. people tend to think that they are one in a million, that no one else can be as good as them. manipulating other's in the aspect of feelings and relationship in order to get to what they need or want.

furthermore, the act of appreciation is so lacking in this situation. somehow, that is what life is all about. you can never expect a reciprocal responds or even a respond that you wish for. that's when pain steps in.

anyhow, whoever is in this situation, i pray that God's strength is upon you and forever leading you on a path of peaceful and love. amen.

PHILEMON

Blogging at this hour with hungry stomach. not a good sign at all but there is something that hit me tonight after my quiet time.

today was on philemon. in this chapter, it teaches me that how to handle tricky subject but still with a great deal heart. here i undertand that, no matter how drastic is the situation, we are never at par to judge someone. instead, looking at the different view. making that someone from a slave position into becoming the partner in faith.

up to here at the moment. will need to do more reflective thinking. :)

wake up in the morning feeling like....

this morning got up by a knock on the door. wondering who was that, and it was the maintenance guys. previously was anticipating them to fix the house problems. but when they arrived, i just feel .... disturbed.

i am so tired. why am i even awake at this hour. haiz. sometimes, ppl cant be compromising so many things. just gotta bare with it. i gotta go sleep soon. heck care the assignments.

Another day

It has been awhile since i updated this page. Never knew that, once i re-enter here, it will be a post of dissatisfactory. there are so many things that are out of control. i cannot resist not to start a complain. i know complaining is bad but still.... sigh

other than that, life's been great here in Launceston. it feels more home this year as compared to the previous semester. lately, i've been attending parties after parties and slightly neglected on my assignments.

apparently, tommorow is labour day for launceston! woohooo! another day off. better not use this as an excuse to escape from work. right, better get started then. cya! :)

Happy holiday peeps!

time flies..
just came home after celebrating zhen yang's 21st birthday. would say it was a success and 'believe he enjoyed it much. we enjoyed most of the time too. anyway, Happy Birthday to Zhen Yang. may all god's glory falls on you and shine. :)

40 days to redeem myself

... 40 days to go ...

MONDAY, TUESDAY, WEDNESDAY, THURSDAY, FRIDAY, SATURDAY, SUNDAY

MONDAY, TUESDAY, WEDNESDAY, THURSDAY, FRIDAY, SATURDAY, SUNDAY

MONDAY, TUESDAY, WEDNESDAY, THURSDAY, FRIDAY, SATURDAY, SUNDAY

MONDAY, TUESDAY, WEDNESDAY, THURSDAY, FRIDAY, SATURDAY, SUNDAY

MONDAY, TUESDAY, WEDNESDAY, THURSDAY, FRIDAY, SATURDAY, SUNDAY

MONDAY, TUESDAY, WEDNESDAY, THURSDAY, FRIDAY

(that's all i have)

i shall start my 'return to launnie' plan'

1st - learn how to cook (still on level '0' since i came back)

2nd - shop for more clothes (now all i have are winter clothings)

3rd - plan job over there (to stack cash-es for wedding!) haha..

4th - say all the goodbyes whenever i can (don't wanna repeat in the previous)

5th - buy my next return ticket (maybe i shall just stay there and not come back)

yay! :D

(can't wait to get ot of the house)

Special Message

its been long since i found myself back. after so long that i've drifted apart, now that im back, i hope things get better. im a changed person now. i no longer need to face the shame and guilt in me. thank you god for your undying love and forgiveness. lord, whatever i hope for this year in the calendar, i surrender it all to you. jesus, take control of me and my family and the relationship with james.

RINGING BELLS

the date is getting closer,

im getting nervous all over,

is time for me to get prepared,

for the day will soon be there.

what shall i wear?

what shall i eat?

or what shall i do?

no worries

coz the lord is above all

and i shall not be shaken

for things will be done accordingly

but far as for now

i'll need to think of

....

JESUS